Happy Mothers Day

I hope each and every one of you had a wonderful day with your kids and your own mothers. I hope that today someone took the time to tell you what an amazing mom you are and if they didn't I'm telling you!

My day was pretty much the same as every other day my husband bought me a card which the kiddos gave to me this morning and that was the end of mothers day. It was back to laundry and naptime and the usual.

I've spent the whole day being mad or disappointed in Jim for not making the day special. He told me "your not my mom". I know that the kids are going to learn from his example and if it isn't a big deal to him than why should it be to them.

Tonight though I find myself thinking back to 4 years ago we had done a couple of rounds of clomid and they hadn't worked and Jim had just had his first semen analysis. We had just found out that we might never be parents. That was the worst mothers day ever for me, I couldn't imagine facing a day that just reminded me what I wasn't. Then there was the mothers day 3 years ago, we had just gotten the positive pregnancy test but not yet the confirmation from the dr. I had already miscarried from my previous IVF cycle and I didn't really know if this pregnancy would end the same way. I don't really remember feeling scared on mothers day that year though even though I hadn't told anyone other than my own mom I think I knew that I was going to be a mom. If only I had known then!!!

So I've decided that instead of being hurt or disappointed in my husband I'm going to try (please note I said try) to let those feelings go and just revel in the feeling of being a mom. This morning I woke up and there were three little beautiful wonderful beings there to greet me with smiles and hugs, this morning I woke up a mom, that my friends is the best feeling in the world even with the laundry and the whining and all the mundane things that I do. And even though no one uttered the words Misty your a good mom or thanks for doing what you do, I know that what I'm doing matters to my three blessings.

I also need to take some space to say Thank you to my own mom. She has been my hero for so long she made many sacrifice's and tough decisions concerning my brother and I and I can't imagine being nearly as strong as her or half as good of a mother. I'm so lucky because she is my best friend and my mom. She has a habit of telling people that they should be so lucky to have a daughter like me (ya she does this a lot it's a little embarrassing) but really everyone should be so lucky to have a mom like mine. Was that hard to follow? Sorry.

Mom, thank you so much for making me the strong person that I am and helping me through all my hardships. Thank you for supporting me and listening to me with a full heart no matter what. Thank you for helping me survive infertility and a triplet pregnancy. Thank you for taking such great care of me and I pray that I never have to know first hand how tough my pregnancy was on you. Thank you for being the best grandma in the world and loving my kids as much as you love me. You are AWESOME!!!!

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY!!!!