Friday, May 30, 2008

Oh Poop

Abigail and James are all clear and back to normal. Poor Katie however has added diahreahh to her list. The poor child has been so pitiful she lays around most of the time and whines " I not throw up mommy". For the most part though her real throwing up happens after midnight.

She has woken up the last 2 nights now covered in it and listen to this the child does not want me to take care of her!!! She wants daddy, can you believe that? I get her up clean her up and hold her while she throws up and then she just wants her daddy and then falls asleep with him. I guess I can't really blame her though I do smell like puke!

I'm so proud she has only been potty trained for about a month and yet even with diareahh the child has made it to the potty every time. On the other hand Abigail still waits until her diaper goes on for nap or bed and then poops. Whatever at least she isn't doing it on my floor or her panties right?

While I was scrubing the potty for the 15th time today with bleach and washing mine and Katies hands for the millionth time my son decided to join in some fun. I cam out of the bathroom and he was smearing poop on the playroom floor. Appearently there was a gap in his diaper and he decided to see what was in there that or he just wanted his hands scrubbed to. I should be greatful though at least he was in the playroom instead of on the carpet and I caught him pretty early before he hit any walls or toys.

Yuck yuck yuck. I mean seriously how much puke and poop can one woman take?

Tuesday, May 27, 2008

I haven't puked!

I have never in my life been able to tolerate puke, blood guts cool, puke makes me puke. BT (before triplets) when the dog would throw up I would throw a paper towel over it and leave it for Jim. I once had a patient throw up while I was drawing her blood and had to quickly remove the needle and leave the room. I don't do puke!!!

Well we are now on day 3 of pukefest 2008 and I am surviving!!! Yay me. Unfortunately I have washed at least 6 loads of towels and sheets in the last 3 days, I have been thrown up on, my car reeks of it and I'm not sure I'll ever get it out of the carseat. I have slept with towels covering it so we could just sleep for a little while.

Abigail started Sunday, James joined her Sunday night, and Katie joined after her nap today. The first 2 have now moved on to diarrhea (yuck) so back to diapers for Abigail until its cleared.

What do you feed them when even the BRAT diet doesn't work? Bananas nope, rice nope, applesauce well we haven't tried that one yet, and toast yeah they won't even eat that without something on it and that defeats the purpose. Also try explaining to a 2 year old they can't have milk. They don't understand and you can't reason with them.

We watched so much tv today I'm personally going to get sick if I have to watch one more Dora or Barney! Poor kids hopefully they can at least sleep tonight so we can start over tomorrow. With any luck Jim and I can stay clear but really what are the odds?

Friday, May 23, 2008

Life Changing Moments

3 years ago I waited very impatiently to see what the future held. Jim, my mom and I all waited while the sono tech I worked for finished his morning and of course he was running late. Finally my turn came along I was only 7 weeks pregnant but already my HCG levels were higher than normal indicating a possible multiple pregnancy.

I laid on the bed and he ran the wand over my tummy and we waited he looked and immediatly found 2 strong heartbeats, and then he saw the 3rd sac. There was a little heartbeat in there but it was so close to the side of the sac he couldn't be sure it wasn't just my heartbeat pulsing. Having worked for an OB for a couple of years I knew he would get a better image with the "other" kind of sono so I quickly told everyone to please leave so I could take my clothes off and get under the sheet.

Jim stayed in the room and he just kept saying " I told you, I told you this was going to happen". He wasn't happy or excited he was purely terrifed. I felt electrified and excited and more scared and unsure than I had ever felt in my life. Surely enough the sono showed all three babies and my life turned upside down.

We had tried for a couple of years and at one point were told we had less than a 1% chance of ever having a baby without IVF. When we did the first transfer we transfered 2 perfect 5 day embryos and I got a positive pregnancy test a short 7 days later but my numbers weren't good and only a few days later I lost the pregnncy.

Jim wasn't really onboard with trying again but I begged and promised if we could try a frozen cycle I would give up my dream of being a mommy, he reluctently agreed. 2 months later we transfered 3 beautiful embryos and were told the chances all 3 would take was less than 10%.

3 years ago today I saw my beautiful rice sized babies and the most wonderful little heartbeats in the world. Jim didn't tell anyone he didn't speak for 3 days he was just so angry and scared. I told everyone!!! I had waited until we saw the sono to tell anyone so it was even more exciting to tell everyone there were 3. My mom ran out that same day and bought me maternity clothes she was so excited she couldn't stop smiling and she was as giddy as a small child on Christmas.

It's so amazing to me that now I have 2 1/2 year old triplets running around driving me crazy and occasionally bang my head on the wall but most of the time they melt my heart and make me the happiest woman in the world.

Who would have guessed that a moment desicion to transfer 3 microscopic embryos would forever change so many lives.

Sunday, May 18, 2008

Fun in the Sun

We had the best day yesterday the kind that reminds you how much fun it is to be a kid. We started the morning by going to the local miniature train, the kids LOVED the train. I've never seen James be so quiet he sat with his hands folded in his lap and every time the whistle blew he said "choo choo". When our ride was over he had a terrible fit because he wanted to ride again.

Afterwards we went to lunch let me tell you potty training and trying to eat is not fun! I think everyone was through eating before I got to sit down because one of the girls had to go every 5 minutes and then it was a toss up if they would actually go.

After nap we went to Aunt Linda's house and went swimming at the wading pool. We then had a picnic on her balcony and they decided it was time for a bath, unfortunately I didn't bring jammies so they played in the tun instead.

Sorry no pics from the train I was an idiot and forgot my camera!

Thursday, May 15, 2008

This will make you smile

Ok I can't help but share theis picture!

And heres one of them all!

Can you say blackmail!!!!

Sunday, May 11, 2008

Happy Mothers Day

I hope each and every one of you had a wonderful day with your kids and your own mothers. I hope that today someone took the time to tell you what an amazing mom you are and if they didn't I'm telling you!

My day was pretty much the same as every other day my husband bought me a card which the kiddos gave to me this morning and that was the end of mothers day. It was back to laundry and naptime and the usual.

I've spent the whole day being mad or disappointed in Jim for not making the day special. He told me "your not my mom". I know that the kids are going to learn from his example and if it isn't a big deal to him than why should it be to them.

Tonight though I find myself thinking back to 4 years ago we had done a couple of rounds of clomid and they hadn't worked and Jim had just had his first semen analysis. We had just found out that we might never be parents. That was the worst mothers day ever for me, I couldn't imagine facing a day that just reminded me what I wasn't. Then there was the mothers day 3 years ago, we had just gotten the positive pregnancy test but not yet the confirmation from the dr. I had already miscarried from my previous IVF cycle and I didn't really know if this pregnancy would end the same way. I don't really remember feeling scared on mothers day that year though even though I hadn't told anyone other than my own mom I think I knew that I was going to be a mom. If only I had known then!!!

So I've decided that instead of being hurt or disappointed in my husband I'm going to try (please note I said try) to let those feelings go and just revel in the feeling of being a mom. This morning I woke up and there were three little beautiful wonderful beings there to greet me with smiles and hugs, this morning I woke up a mom, that my friends is the best feeling in the world even with the laundry and the whining and all the mundane things that I do. And even though no one uttered the words Misty your a good mom or thanks for doing what you do, I know that what I'm doing matters to my three blessings.

I also need to take some space to say Thank you to my own mom. She has been my hero for so long she made many sacrifice's and tough decisions concerning my brother and I and I can't imagine being nearly as strong as her or half as good of a mother. I'm so lucky because she is my best friend and my mom. She has a habit of telling people that they should be so lucky to have a daughter like me (ya she does this a lot it's a little embarrassing) but really everyone should be so lucky to have a mom like mine. Was that hard to follow? Sorry.

Mom, thank you so much for making me the strong person that I am and helping me through all my hardships. Thank you for supporting me and listening to me with a full heart no matter what. Thank you for helping me survive infertility and a triplet pregnancy. Thank you for taking such great care of me and I pray that I never have to know first hand how tough my pregnancy was on you. Thank you for being the best grandma in the world and loving my kids as much as you love me. You are AWESOME!!!!


Wednesday, May 7, 2008

Clean Up Clean Up

everbody everywhere, clean up clean up everbody do their share... I think I love Barney tonight.

I mopped the kitchen today and the kids took turns helping me, they were so cute pushing it back and forth. At dinner I had each child come and get their cup of milk and take it to the table and then we did the same with their fork and napkin. I make their plates and take them to the table and I wasn't that brave. After dinner they each brought their dishes to me and helped load the dish washer and then swept up the crumbs, cleaned the table and wiped down their chairs. Of course James turned his plate over on the way and it spilled (on my clean floor) and they helped me clean it up. Abigail told me "it's very hard mommy but I will try".

Then Katie sang the Barney song to us while we picked up toys! Oh my they are so cute. Of course tomorrow they will refuse to do anything in the least way helpful I'm sure and possibly they will be as rotten as they were yesterday but today I love being their mommy!

Tuesday, May 6, 2008

What a crazy day

Ok so yesterday I started an entry (didn't finish) about how jealous I was of my kids. I was jealous of this great relationship that they are building and how much fun they are having. Well today......

Katie started whining at 430 this morning and except for a break at nap time and another short one this evening it didn't stop until she cried herself to sleep about 15 minutes ago! WTH happened to my happy girl? This morning I turned the tv on PBS kids and said fine watch whatever is on as long as you stop whining. The unopened bottle of wine I bought a couple of weeks ago started looking really good at about 1030 this morning.

So maybe I shouldn't really be jealous after all they had to listen to her whine all day as well and they got short changed on the attention and mommies patience.

Hmmm maybe someday I'll finish yesterdays post but for today I'll just hit save....

Sunday, May 4, 2008

On the Farm

What a wild and crazy weekend we had. Yesterday my family had our 1st family cooking competetion at my uncles house and I won!!! I beat all the boys with their grills with my brisket yay me. There was so much smack talk going on it seems so right that I would beat them all.

We left the house right at nap time yesterday and let the kids sleep on the 45 minute trip which was fine they all did great with so little sleep. Then when we got there they were so excited to see the goats and donkey and even more excited to feed them leaves and sticks (we almost stripped the poor tree). Katie was very aprehensive but before we left she was finally feeding them as well.

Katie and Abigail decided they were spending the night with Aunt Linda and kept telling me over and over again it was time to go so we could get jammies and diapers. Only when we got in the car did I realize it was already 8pm! Wow the time flew by. We pulled onto our street and James who had now decided he was staying with Aunt Linda as well started telling me louder and lounder "no home mommy, Aunt Linda", I explained I was just running in and they informed me they would wait in the car. So we got to Aunt Lindas around 915 and when I left Aunt Lindas at 1030 (yes they were all still awake and behaving wonderfully), Katie decided she didn't want to stay so she was the only one to come home. However she did sleep until 930 this morning wow that has never happened. The other 2 slept until 830 and were all ready for a nap at 1.

Today we went to a birthday party and they had so much fun exploring all the toys it started a little sad for Abigail though she didn't want to give the present to the birthday girls.

They have eaten so much junk this week it is crazy!!! Now that Nanny is back in Colorado and we have no plans this week I can get us back on track and routine and life can get back to its normal chaos yay! I am potty training the girls. James has no interest what so ever and I just don't feel like pushing him he will when he is ready and heck I'm already going to save a fortune on diapers whats diapers for one!

They are really doing well with the PT Abigail refuses to wear panties which in itself is really funny and something we really have to work on this week. I have tried every kind of panty made and the child refuses, not only refuses but has more accidents with panties than without. So whatever we don't leave the house with bear butts so eventually she will come around right?

Friday, May 2, 2008

Before I Was a mom

Hey everyone sorry I have been MIA for a month, wow how did that happen? Life has just been so hectic I had a month of clinicals for my phlebotomy certificate and was working 3:30 am to 12:30 pm. My children chose this time to not sleep through the night so I was lucky to get 3 hours of sleep each night and then maybe an hour or two at nap. I'm through and my mil left this morning so life should be getting back to normal now!

I have so much catching up to do and have started a list of things I want to share with you but tonight I just want to read about all my friends because let me tell you I really feel like I've missed watching your children grow in the last month.

So tonight I just wanted to share an e-mail that I received and I promise I'll start fresh tomorrow.

I missed you all like crazy and I hope you have missed me and will start reading again.

Before I was a Mom

I never tripped over toys or forgot words to a lullaby.
I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous.
I never thought about immunizations.
Before I was a Mom:
I had never been puked on.
Pooped on.
Chewed on.
Peed on.
I had complete control of my mind and my thoughts.
I slept all night.
Before I was a Mom
I never held down a screaming child so doctors could do tests or give shots.
I never looked into teary eyes and cried.
I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.
I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.
Before I was a Mom
I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put her down.
I never felt my heart break into a m illion pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt.
I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much.
I never knew that I could love someone so much.
I never knew I would love being a Mom.
Before I was a Mom
I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body.
I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby.
I didn't know that bond between a mother and her child.
I didn't know that something so small could make me feel so important and happy.
Before I was a Mom
I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay.
I had never known the warmth, the joy, the love, the heartache, the wonderment or the satisfaction of being a Mom.
I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much, before I was a Mom.